Abdul Fan a Waterville Native 

A Paula Abdul fan who was found dead in a car near the Los Angeles home of the pop star she admired is being remembered in Maine by family members who say she struggled with depression and eating disorders as she pursued her dream of stardom.

Waterville native Sandra May McIntyre, who changed her name to Paula Goodspeed, had been ridiculed over her failed audition for &quot:American Idol.&quot:

Goodspeed’s mother, Sandra McIntyre, said her daughter’s manic depression deepened after her show business dreams dissipated.

Goodspeed’s fiance, Paul McInnis, said her Nov. 11 death occurred the day before the 30-year-old was to have moved back to Maine with her mother.